What do you do when you know you're good? I mean, really really good at what you do. Do you attempt to hide it in the shadows of other's foolishness or flaunt it full view of everyone ?

And why is it that when one attempts to flaunt their individuality, their intellect and their supreme ability to accomplish every task that comes their way- such people are labelled arrogant and aggresive?

Why can't we stand some one else's courage to stand out in the crowd and rebel? Why are we so caught up in doing things "the right way"?

And those who can't flaunt it, successfully fake it!

Tolerating someone else's success has always been a problem with us humans and will probably always be.

Just live and let live. Seriously!!

Lestat

I wrote this while watching Interview With The Vampire. This short poem, (or whatever you may wish to call it) is dedicated to Lestat..who never found love.

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Disappointed, the old vampire receded into the dark
Determined to come back to life
Or to surviving that he knew was not hard

He kept himself awake with the blood of the sweet maid
Who knew her master was ill and that her fate was made
She gave up all she had for him
Only to be turned into what others would call a sin

She loved him and so did he
Together, they set about
With dreams of conquering the world

Until one fateful day HE decided to return
Detached, cold, restless and undone
He was beautiful and clean
Like the devil, HE walked in unseen

HE was mortal and not dead
For 200years, it never seemed to end
Now HE knew he’d found his nemesis
Who lay unaware in the arms of his mistress

They dueled all night and then in the dark
She watched them with an impassive heart
It must all stop, she told herself
I must bring a closure, it must all end

And so she burned their castle down
Fell in his arms and cried out aloud
“atlast we pay for all our sins,
Let us leave as our hearts bleed”



HE watched them turn to ash and dust
As He made his way back to the world
That gave HIM no life or even death
But only the loss of a friend
HE no longer regrets

Let's Live Again

After a point of time, all your senses go numb. You stop feeling or caring about anything. All that matters is absolute nothingness and complete inadequacy to enjoy the simple joys of life. That's when the bigger questions begin to hit you.

Where are you headed?

What does it all mean?

Why should you live this way?

Is this how you have chosen to live now?

Can you ever go back? Ever?

And immediately after this, you start thinking about "back then". About how things were same and yet you never complained. So why now? If you can't feel anything, what is THIS called?

Suddenly it dawns upon you that this is how it is going to be. The past, the present, the future. All amalgamate into one large drawing and while you're busy filling in the colours of your present or covering up the smudges of your past or even outlining the contours of your future, life happens. It doesn't matter what you've drawn. It would've happened had you not been so busy with your picture- fixing it, altering it, etc.

So what's the bottomline to all of this? Nothing.  You live and then you die. Turn to dust.  You're senses dont mean anything in the end.

What do you do now? Just go around doing what you want to do. Feel what you want to feel. The longer you waste your time being someone else, harder it will become for you to feel anything foryourself.

Be whole again. Be yourself. The world can go to hell. Dont go with it.

Strictly Sexual

When you hear about a movie called Strictly Sexual, you dismiss it immediately for you assume that all it would have is sex, loads of crappy disgusting jokes on sex and silly humour with a too-good-to-be-true ending. That’s exactly what I thought when I first stumbled upon the movie.

But Strictly Sexual is just the opposite. This 2008 movie about two women (Donna and Christie Ann) who hire two out of work construction workers (Stanny and Joe) as their sexual partners manages to delight you and at the same time does not lose itself by focusing simply on sex. It explores friendship, love and relationships in a very refreshing way.  Donna is a writer who is afraid to share or show her work to anyone. She is also very rich and loves to experiment in bed. Christie Ann is her sexually timid friend who is an aspiring fashion designer. It is her idea to hire the two men so that she can “practice” with one of them and hence become better at sex. Stanny is the cynic and Joe is the sweet dumb guy who you fall in with. The movie is about how what starts out as a “strictly sexual” encounter evolves into something so much more beautiful and practical.

I loved the movie because it’s romantic without being too corny or unrealistic. It presents you with situations that you can relate with and in no time feel that it could happen to you too.  If you love non-clichéd romantic movies, this one is definitely for you.

(poster image source: http://shufilm.blogspot.com/2009/01/unit-4x13.html)

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Agnes De Mille

Love

She felt love like a wild flower
Cut by the storm and trampled by the rain
But as the morning dew rests on its soft petal
It would be alive again

 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine... And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

  - Marianne Williamson